I'm Just Waiting... :)

Hey Everybody!

It's been a few days since I've posted a blog, but my mind has been thinking! I titled this blog "I'm just waiting" because ever since I let Eva borrow my iPod last night she's been singing "Average Girl" by BarlowGirl in which the chorus is "no more dating, I'm just waiting like sleeping beauty my prince will come for me..." She walks around with earphones in singing (very loudly I might add) "No more dating, I'm just waiting..." This morning I looked at the iPod while she was singing and it was on "I'm Bringing home a baby bumble bee" but she was still singing "no more dating, I'm just waiting" haha it cracks me up!!!!! Also speaking of waiting, we went to the bank this morning and while waiting for the ATM to get loaded, the security guard asked me if Eva was my first born and I said no. she's my friend Then he asked me if I was married and I said no. THAT WAS MY FIRST MISTAKE! I should have lied and said yes. Hind sight is always 20/20 haha. Then he asked if I would marry him and we could make babies (this is after he already told me he has a child). I laughed and said no and that I want someone from America. He must think that there are no black people in America because he pointed to his skin and said this color is good! lol I touched Eva's arm and said I know it is good. I love this color, but I want someone from America (A certain one in particular). After asking me to marry him a couple more times, he finally realized that I was NOT going to marry him. He may already be married. They practice polygamy here. If that is the case, then definitely no :)

Some people have asked about John. He is doing a little better, but not as well as I would like. Of course, I don't know how long it takes to shake Malaria. My head cold seems to be getting worse despite my efforts to lay low and get well quickly. I didn't sleep well last night :/

I have a couple things I've been praying about besides John and I getting better. I've been praying that God quickly provides $4,000 for Emily's plane ticket. There are orphans ready to come here but they cannot until she gets back. Let's not keep them waiting!!!! Also, I have been praying for my wonderful future husband, whoever he may be. I have been praying about my job situation and what I may be doing when I get back in the States a month from now.

Most importantly, I have been praying that my life will never be the same. I want God to use me in EVERY way possible, here in Uganda and back home. I want to be His hands, feet, voice, and love to all those He places in my life. I don't want to be selfish and think I deserve the best or better than what I have. I want to be grateful for the little things AND the big things. I don't want this to be a one time experience of humility and crying out to God. I want this to be a DAILY thing, a MOMENT-by-MOMENT thing. I want to be the Woman that God delights in calling His Own. I want to be the Woman that makes the Devil shake in his boots when my feet hit the floor in the morning. I want him to have to say "Oh no! She's awake! Quick boys! Man your stations. This is WAR! We can't let God win today. Don't give up. We can't let Him have her...AGAIN!" That's the Woman I want to be. I want my life to be a reflection of JESUS. This is a CRAZY, BOLD prayer. Who on earth ASKS the devil to wage war? Who ASKS for a spiritual battle everyday? I DO. Because you know what? Every day that I don't ask for it, is the day that I think I don't need God. It's the day that I think I've got it under control...and that's exactly what the Devil wants. He isn't threatened when we think "I've got this." He isn't threatened when we aren't following after the Heart of God. And that, my friends, is a SCARY place to be. Is that what we want? Easy lives? No spiritual warfare? Just coasting along thinking we have it under control. Oh no, Christian. Every day should be a battle that the Devil just can't win. One of my favorite verses is Exodus 14:14. The Israelites had just left Egypt and were having to cross the Red Sea. God had just delivered them and they were afraid because the Egyptians were coming after them and they felt hopeless. Moses tells them that "The Lord will fight for you; you need only be still." That has so been me. God delivers me from the fear and doubt that the Devil has thrown at me and the next week I come crying out to God again, "Oh no God! The Devil is attacking me and I don't know what to do!!!" I will fight for you, Nicole. You need only BE STILL. The song "Be Still" by Kari Jobe is the most played song on my iPod. Over 200 times! Because I constantly need that reminder that I am not alone and if I just BE STILL and wait on God, HE WILL FIGHT FOR ME! Isn't God good?! It blows my mind that God cares that much! :) He has been working mightily on my heart. I have so much to say and not the words to say it. Let's ask for WAR. Because we already know who's gonna win :)